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。 Were I not morally certain that your uncle will be dead ere you reach Madeira; I would advise you to acpany Mr。 Mason back; but as it is; I think you had better remain in England till you can hear further; either from or of Mr。 Eyre。 Have we anything else to stay for?” he inquired of Mr。 Mason。
“No; no—let us be gone;” was the anxious reply; and without waiting to take leave of Mr。 Rochester; they made their exit at the hall door。 The clergyman stayed to exchange a few sentences; either of admonition or reproof; with his haughty parishioner; this duty done; he too departed。
I heard him go as I stood at the half…open door of my own room; to which I had now withdrawn。 The house cleared; I shut myself in; fastened the bolt that none might intrude; and proceeded—not to weep; not to mourn; I was yet too calm for that; but—mechanically to take off the wedding dress; and replace it by the stuff gown I had worn yesterday; as I thought; for the last time。 I then sat down: I felt weak and tired。 I leaned my arms on a table; and my head dropped on them。 And now I thought: till now I had only heard; seen; moved—followed up and down where I was led or dragged—watched event rush on event; disclosure open beyond disclosure: but now; I thought。
The morning had been a quiet morning enough—all except the brief scene with the lunatic: the transaction in the church had not been noisy; there was no explosion of passion; no loud altercation; no dispute; no defiance or challenge; no tears; no sobs: a few words had been spoken; a calmly pronounced objection to the marriage made; some stern; short questions put by Mr。 Rochester; answers; explanations given; evidence adduced; an open admission of the truth had been uttered by my master; then the living proof had been s