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ently enjoy; all at once。 And then there are other chances in life far more thrilling and rapture…giving: this is solid; an affair of the actual world; nothing ideal about it: all its associations are solid and sober; and its manifestations are the same。 One does not jump; and spring; and shout hurrah! at hearing one has got a fortune; one begins to consider responsibilities; and to ponder business; on a base of steady satisfaction rise certain grave cares; and we contain ourselves; and blood over our bliss with a solemn brow。
Besides; the words Legacy; Bequest; go side by side with the words; Death; Funeral。 My uncle I had heard was dead—my only relative; ever since being made aware of his existence; I had cherished the hope of one day seeing him: now; I never should。 And then this money came only to me: not to me and a rejoicing family; but to my isolated self。 It was a grand boon doubtless; and independence would be glorious—yes; I felt that—that thought swelled my heart。
“You unbend your forehead at last;” said Mr。 Rivers。 “I thought Medusa had looked at you; and that you were turning to stone。 Perhaps now you will ask how much you are worth?”
“How much am I worth?”
“Oh; a trifle! Nothing of course to speak of—twenty thousand pounds; I think they say—but what is that?”
“Twenty thousand pounds?”
Here was a new stunner—I had been calculating on four or five thousand。 This news actually took my breath for a moment: Mr。 St。 John; whom I had never heard laugh before; laughed now。
“Well;” said he; “if you had mitted a murder; and I had told you your crime was discovered; you could scarcely look more aghast。”
“It is a large sum—don’t you think there is a mistake?”
“No mistake at all。”
“Perhaps you ha